July 2010
Anger
its such a powerful emotion that runs in our lives. right now i have a lot of anger at myself, i always hate myself. i wish for change, but am not willing to put the effort to change. im just horrible. im angry at myself for many reasons. but most are things that people don’t give a crap about. my anger awakens from my jealousy and lust, then i just become sad after the rage engulfs me, and...
feedonbeats-deactivated20101005 asked: damn sucks right? but naa wasnt me, my friend got hurt and im just pissed off now
IM SOOOO STUPID!!!!
i made an event for my birthday party on FB, but i was stupid to not make it private cause there are people inviting themselves even though i did not sent them an invitation!!! i hate it, i pray to God that this day will be ok, cause there are people coming that i dont really want coming!!!
Uncle Jojo
my cousin suddenly chatted with me on FB. it started off normal until she asked about her father. My uncle Jojo has come and gone to my house many times, but that’s just it, he never really stays here that long anymore. he just comes home when he is sick, or if he needs money to smoke. now apparently his daughter, or his main family, hasn’t talked to him in a really long time. i felt...
restless
i came home from hangin with friends the other night and i decided to make my birthday an event on facebook, and i’ve never made an event before on facebook so, i was trying to select the people to invite on FB. its took me 3 hours after 12 to finish this, gosh idk why it took so long. so this is what happened as to why it took so long, i think i have 8hundred sumthin friends on FB, and i...
"Daddy...It hurts"
joshybandoma:
maaaanderz:
jawkneee:
daanamarie:
meeshelay:
dopesole:
jessicaamaee:
cheskaholic:
This is A TRUE STORY AND IF YOU DON’T PASS THIS ON YOU DON’T HAVE A SOUL!!! My name is Chris , I am three, My eyes are swollen.. I cannot see. I must be stupid, I must be bad, What else could have made, My daddy so mad? I wish I were better, I wish I weren’t ugly, Then maybe...
i seem to give up alot
so, i guess i just suck at everything, i always give up and never have a goal that i am willing to struggle for. my life just sucks most of the time but maybe im just saying that now cause i feel like a worthless piece of shit at the moment and im too ugly for the world and no one should give a fuck about me cause im a big piece of shit. i always tell myself that i should just die, but that never...
trying to sleep early
so ever since summer vacation started for me, my sleeping schedule change to a weird sleeping and waking up time. it use to be 10ish to maybe 8-9ish, but now its 3 AM-ish to 12ish, i hate missing the morning, and i dont know why is sleep so late, i have no reason to be sleeping late!!!, i want my morning even though i don’t know what i could be doing. but i still could use my morning to get...
birthday?
so, i dont kno if i deserve a birthday, cause for the past 3 years i havent had one, should i go for 4 years, idk, that and i dont kno wat day is best to celebrate my bday, oh well, if i dont thats ok cause im pretty sure other adults dont either, oh well life sucks like that…..
im upset....
so i saw a pic of the person i use to have a crush on doing hooka, and that is very upsetting to me. when i see a good person doing hooka, or smoking, it just brings me down sometimes, i mean im suppose to believe that tattoos is a way of vandalizing ur body and christians are not suppose to vandalize their body because it is to be treated as a temple of God, but idk i think tattoos are just a way...
sometimes, i really want to give up on life......
when ever someone talks about wanting to look better even though they look good already, and then comparing their desired look from my fat state, it infuriates me. it makes me feel the pressure of the world, that you HAVE TO look good. It overpowers the words of God for me most of the time. I always want to kill myself when ever they talk about my ugly physical features and my sexuality, i hate...
my mom hates unprescribed contact lenses...
so, my mom reads all her news from the internet, and apparently, the read something about some unprescribed contacts lenses causing to you to go blind because i deprives the eyes of oxygen or something like that. now i know people that have worn contacts, not so sure if they were prescribed or not,but they seem to be doing just fine. i was planing to get my own pair from mitsuwa, but now i guess i...
I SAW A SHOOTING STAR!!! ( NO LIE!!!)
Sooo, its around 2:30ish am at night, and i wanted to go swimming in my pool cause everyone is asleep. i go swim at night cause i don’t want to be judged by my family or anyone else, so i don’t think I’m gunna swim in public view for a while, anyway, i was relaxed to finally be able to go into the pool, it was nice and cool and refreshing. It was also a good chance to meditate on...
